Just Like a Moon Rabbit

"Hey Claire, aren't you tired of having that rabbit of yours around?"

"That rabbit is not mine!"

"How come? It has been one and a half month since that rabbit stays with you."

"I don't know either!"

"What? Are you Alice to be chased around by a rabbit?"

"I'm not. And she's not been chased by the rabbit instead she chased for it."

"Oh, I see..."

I'm Claire and it's been one and a half month since this white rabbit started chasing me. No matter how hard I would drive him away, it would always come back the other day. You may think of it as unusual situation just how I take it. In my own understanding, it would be more normal if a cat or dog wouldn't leave in the thought that they wanted to be adopted. However in this case, it seems mysterious.  Day after day, this rabbit won't call the day without having an appearance to me. But on this vexing rainy afternoon, a mystical truth untangled my puzzling situation…

"BEEP!! BEEP!!" the sound of a rushing track.

"CLAIRE!!!" the shout of my dearest friend I hope to carry in heaven.

I was in the middle of the road unconsciously walking and in a second, was out of breath. The smiles of my family, friends and acquaintances flashed like a lightning in my head in having the thought of "Thank you for everything.." for I know on the other second of consciousness, I will not be able to think about it ever again. Death didn't frighten me but the truth that I'll not be able to give back the gratitude I owe to this human links. But, surprisingly, God seems to lend me some of His mercy...

"Claire!!! Are you alright?? Can you hear me? Oh, answer please!!" Patricia said in a scared, husky voice.

"Yes I am.. What happened? Where am I?" I said.

"Thank goodness! The rabbit saved you Claire! Wait a little more the ambulance was about to come." I slowly came back to consciousness and realized Patricia holding me in the middle of the road.

I was harmless but a little dizzy. The track seems to be fine with a little crash only however as I look at the rabbit who saved me, he seems lifeless. I can't move neither shout nor utter a sound. I want to hold him and retrieve his life. As I try to stretch my arm to the poor blood stained rabbit while the nurses were taking me on a stretcher, I visualized a smile. The warmest smile I never thought I would see after 4 long years that melted and gave life to my dying heart.

"I see… It's you… Thank you…" I murmur to myself with a gentle unknown smile in my face while a couple of tears started to roll down.







Four years ago, I was one of the dusts of literature who found meaning of writing stories in a powerless creature. In an isolated place that was unfamiliar to the crowd while writing down the imaginary world I hoped for is where I met him.

"Whaaa.. You put your soul in writing that huh. That's amazing!" a stranger said.

"Eeek! Who are you?! Please stop meddling in other people's business!!" I said madly.

"Oh! Sorry! I just happen to pass by and discovered this peaceful place." he said.

I ignored him in the thought that he would leave but I was wrong. Whenever I finished a page and was about to put in my folder, he would take it without my consent and would start reading it. At first I let him do whatever he wanted but as I get destructed in his reactions, I burst out.

"Please, would you mind to stop?! I let you do whatever you want! In fact I don't even know yo-" I said interrupted by the guy.

"I'm Larne. Nice to meet you! I' m sorry but I can't hold myself in being interested in your story. So, could you please let me read it and stay here with you whenever you would write?" he said with astonishment in his eyes.

I couldn't resist for the first time in my life that someone appreciates my passion. Every day he would be on the same spot of the peaceful park where you can visualize the unending ocean in a 360 degree view of when I first met him and read my stories with an eagerness of finishing it. A month passed by like that and suddenly he asked for permission on taking one of my stories for their play. That's when I learned that he's a stage performer. Gladly, I accepted the offer. But what I didn't understand is that he lied to the director that he didn't know me. He made up a story that a friend only suggested my story which irritates me. I got mad and swear to forget about him but he stopped me saying:

"The reason is in the sky!" he said.

At first I didn't understand but he signaled me to look above. I hesitated but when my curiosity overpowers me, I looked in the sky. To my surprise, the clouds were in a form that every lady would find the sweetest thing on earth if given by the man they love in their whole life. The clouds forming:

                         ' I <3 U '

Frizzy feeling empowered me. It felt as if butterflies started to fly at my stomach and a great amount of chili was put on my face. I couldn't discourse a thing. Only that warm smile in his face could reassure that all that's happening is normal. Yes, I love him too. My dull days changed into rose-colored world that seems so endless. With him by my side is what turned me into a magical dust. But in reality, nothing is endless. In the blink of an eye, he suddenly changed. Told me that he doesn't love me anymore without any known reason and just how I met him, I let him do whatever he wanted. That was not easy for a dust to lose its magic. In his absence I found myself in darkness. I was like a lost child waiting for the death in order to see light. One year after his absence I learned that Larne was already dead. He died leaving a note behind addressed to me. Saying:

"It's been awhile Claire. How have you been? You might be thinking how rude a guy who left you with unknown reason to reach to you his unspoken words but I want to make it clear to you. You didn't ask the further meaning of the reason of my lie to our director so now I will tell it. My dad is in debt of great amount of money so I'm working as a stage performer to pay for it and in order not to involve you I lied about the story. It scared me that they might use you. Now, I left you without known reason and I bet I'm already gone when you read this. My time has come and the money shall be exchanged with my own life. Mourn not my dear as the intention I left you without any reason. Listen, in the darkness of the night I'll always be guiding you. The death shall not be your light but instead, I'll be. A time may come that I will bid you a proper goodbye and by that moment hear me as I say 'I love you'.
~ Larne Luxemburg"



In reminiscing the past, I heard the sweet soft whisper he made. It gave life to my whole self. The sky is the only witness of his great revelation and the only reason of his consolation. By the blood stained white rabbit I understood what his words meant. I could do nothing but shed the frozen tears of when he left me. I could envision myself in the night being lighted by a moon. Upon the true feelings of sorrow and happiness I spoke to myself,  "Just like a Moon Rabbit…"

The End.
© Clarita Joy Cailan ~Merilisle 2012